Jesslovespanic's Journals

dear buzznet

It's sad but I will admit we don't talk much anymore. Sometimes I log onto you and check my updates, sometimes update my own things, but really we're just a friendship that seems to be going downhill. Maybe nothing much is keeping me around anymore, or maybe I've just become lazy and forgotten the beauty of you and all you hold. I hope that sometime in the future I will use you more, because I know how much you love that, and even though it won't be as much as I used to it will be something. I think I'll just give you photos I take and the occasional comment but that might be it. Depends what happens.

Love, rawrjess

xoxox

detached from the buzznet scene

Eeek I don't really know what's happened but I feel quite far from all my buzznet friends! I don't as regularly update this anymore, nor check what you're all up to, which is unfortunate. I've set a standard for myself that my online friends are used to, but now that I'm not on the computer as much/I finished my 365 day project/trashed teens is on hold I feel like I don't even know where to get on track anymore D:

I shall try my hardest and I look forward to catching up with you all sooooooooooon !

An email from my uncle about my new baby cousin, Kate!

Hello Everyone,

Hope this note finds you are all well and the long winter is not to bad this year. It’s still 33 degrees here everyday and 90% humidity!! Hopefully the wet season will start soon and even though it doesn’t get any cooler it at least seems cooler as the sun is not beating down all day.

I am sending some photos of little Kate – our new family member. So far all is going well though we did have a couple of hiccups at the start. She was born almost 5 weeks early for no particular reason – just wanted to come and join the fun I think. She did need to spend a few hours under observation but passed all the tests and was released to the normal nursery ward on the same day she was born.

On the day we were due to bring her home she came down with jaundice and had to be under the uv light for a couple of days. Then we had her home for 2 days before the jaundice flared up again and she needed to be readmitted to hospital for another 2 days. She came home again last Thursday and hopefully for good this time. We saw the doctor again last Saturday and got the all clear.

Yeen and I are getting used to having a new baby in the house again. You forget how small they are. Jack looks like a real buffalo compared to Kate. Mind you Kate is really very tiny. She only weighed 2.8kg at birth and went down to 2.5kg. Even now she is only at about 2.6kg so she feels like you are carrying a doll when you pick her up. Even so she is extremely adorable.

Yeen is well and getting her strength back now. Jack is also doing well and is now 18 months old so he is keeping us on our toes all the time. He is also very curious about his new sister and so far very welcoming. He is fast growing out of the baby phase and is really a toddler now and developing his own personality. He’s even at the stage where he thinks he can make some decisions on his own.

We have all settled into our new place now and glad we got that all sorted out before Kate came along. We are living in a different part of Singapore but given that everything is so small here it’s still very convenient to everything.

Anyway I better get going for now. Will send some more photos through and will let you know when we are planning a trip back to Melbourne. Let me know of any news from back home.

Cheers,

Pete, Yeen, Jack and Kate.

babies :3

I thought you promised me the world?

Unfortunately the shoot with Liam has been pushed back to next week sometime, but nonetheless I'm still pretty pumped. Last night after school we went and all got our outfits for the Alice in Wonderland themed shoot Stacy is shooting on Tuesday night! I will almost have no time to get ready for it, considering it starts at 5 and I get home from school at 4, have 15 minutes to myself then I have to leave for singing until 5! I'll be late!

Last night I had Dan, Trav, Joel, Amber and Indi over for some movies and just to hang out. Joel stayed til midnight then left, but the rest stayed. It was a pretty nice evening (:

This morning I got my haircut and it looks super rad! I think my top layers might be a bit too short but they'll grow. I'm just about to dye my hair then get ready for Mariah's party! Everyone's going out tonight, glad I'm part of that!

Tomorrow I'm having breakfast with the girls then maybe I'll do a shoot in the afternoon. If not, I have plenty of time for any unfinished homework and, of course, buzznet.

What have you got up to this weekend?

that's what you get

Currently in my music class I am the singer of a five person band. On the drums - Booty, Bass - Ryan, Lead guitar - Jes and Joel is on rhythm guitar. We started off by deciding on Misery Business, which worked awesome until I tried to sing it. And it is a rather difficult song to sing. So just the other day we switched it to 'That's What You Get', Paramore obvs. Very good song, and we're covering it well!

Wish me luck when we get around to performing it.

Currently in my singing lessons I'm working on 'Crushcrushcrush' and 'Stop And Stare'. Next week I'll also be starting 'That's What You Get' with my singing teaching, Marcia Howard.

AS FOR PHOTOGRAPHY, tomorrow night I'm doing a shoot with Liam at his house. It shall be super good, and not as cold as last time! On Friday I'm catching up with Stacy, Liam, Hannah, Greta and Jess and we're going to look for outfits for our Tea Party photoshoot next week. Alice in Wonderland themed I think! Should be very very good!

If you haven't seen any of Liam's work, take a look.

this is harrison. who i am doing the shoot with tomorrow night (:

this is Monkey. we both went to The Getaway Plan, wooo. (:

this is Jerome. He sings the cutest song called "Super Dooper", found on his music myspace.

I love Liam's expanding portfolio, and I really look up to him (:

Wish me luck!

A man walks into a bar. His alcoholism is ruining his family.

I feel compelled to write a blog to my neglected buzznet friends but I have zero to write about. Usually I'd be ecstatic at the idea of updating you all on what I'm up to, school, boys and friends, but I can really only keep it short and sweet.

I think I'm possibly battling with some health issues that I should get in order asap. Nothing too serious as far as I'm concerned. Just being this prone to catching illness is probably taking its toll on my body.

Food is quite unappealing as this present time. I don't think I'm fat nor do I need to lose any weight. I just don't get hungry anymore. And frankly I'm sick of the parentals banging on about it. It isn't my fault and I'm trying my hardest but when you get full, you get full. I wouldn't have to waste any food if they didn't buy so much.

What is your favourite food?

I love sushi, noodles and tic tocs. (:

Battle of the Bands was tonight

So good. I love hearing the local talent, catching up with all the people I know in one big place, rocking out and having a slow dance with my new boyfriend.

Life is so good.

F*ck you

my ex-boyfriend macked one of my best friends sisters five days after we broke up. thanks a whole fucking much, i hate you.

bedroom blues

When I'm a parent, I truly will not care too much about the state of my child's room. As for this very moment, it is my room. One room of the whole house that I can call my own, and be in without anyone else. I should be able to decorate it how I want, leave it how I want, trash it how I want. Not that I go smashing holes in my wall or anything.

I hate how I'm constantly nagged to go and tidy it. Nobody but me goes on there, so why can't I have it how I want?! I don't mind if there's some clothes on my chair or my bed is unmade. What is it to my parents if my bed isn't made? The door stays closed. They don't have to go in there.

I just don't get why I'm always ~nagged about it. I just hate it.

I wish my Mum and I were closer

I hate how she blames everyone for one persons doing. I hate how she makes it seem like she's blaming me or my siblings for things wrong in her life. I hate how she can't buy me something without expecting something in return. I hate how she gets so angry or upset over nothing.

I hate how I hate staying at her house.